Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Where Are We Going?

My husband and I decided to take the kids on a day trip a couple weekends ago. We got in the car and headed out. The little kids were busy looking out the windows, laughing at one another, or falling asleep. My oldest was more curious about our destination and 10 minutes in started questioning where we were going. We kind of wanted to surprise them, but he ended up guessing (we'd been there once before) at which point he said with obvious disappointment, "Oh." It was hard in that moment to not feel similar disappointment that he wasn't happy to go where we were going and also frustration that he wasn't grateful at being taken somewhere we considered a kid friendly fun place.

I often have the same reaction as my son. I want to know where I'm going, why I'm going there, what's going to happen, and for how long. I want to know the complete plan so I can make an assessment of it.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."  Jeremiah 29:11

The thing is even if you know where you're going you don't know what's going to happen along the way. You don't know what's going to happen when you get there. That's the difficult element and yet the beautiful aspect all at once. 

I was chatting with her over instant messaging and I said, "I'm trying to be open to things that I don't necessarily see working immediately. I'm trying to trust that I don't always make the best determination at first sight."

In a situation where you have uprooted and moved your whole life to a new place it's easy to look at everything as a job. It's a lot of work to move. It's a lot of work to establish new connections and find all the places you need to go. Yet, despite the work involved these things are amazing opportunities. Each job is an opportunity to learn what it is that you really love. They're opportunities to let go of things you no longer want/need and opportunities to hone in on what it is that is really important to you.

It's actually freeing. Without obligations and die hard patterns established you can be more spontaneous, try more things, and switch things up without feeling tethered. These are the amazing aspects of moving.

God's doing a work here, and relinquishing control is allowing me more freedom than I ever would have if I held tightly to the reigns. As reverse as this thinking might seem, letting go is making me feel more free than I've ever felt. 

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