She was born and in that moment my life transformed again. The fifth little person to enter our family. They set her on me and the weight of her was familiar. I drew her close and whispered, "You're here. I'm so glad you're here."
In that breath - that exhale of relief you take and the inhale your baby takes as they breathe in their life, it is inexorably clear that God created this bond between mother and child. It is an enduring, unwavering, anxious, devoted, warm-hearted love. A love that can soothe the most desperate of cries and one that will fiercely protect if needed. A love that will shelter at the cost of bodily harm and one that will give milk to sustain life.
I don't have to wonder why so many women before me continue to have baby after baby. I don't have to wonder why God loves us so. Because, you see babies are as close to perfection as it can get here on earth.
A baby illustrates the perfect love that our heavenly Father has for us. How we feel about these tiny little people feels completely perfect to us, but is yet a shadow as to how God feels about each of us. If we love our babies to the ends of the earth, how much further does He love us?
I look at her tiny little fingers, her button nose, her dimpled elbows, her sweet little tummy, and her beautiful sparkly eyes. Everything, everything about her is beautiful.
I want to soak it all in, because I know how quickly babyhood flits off into the shadows. I know how a month, 6 months, a year from now I'll look back at pictures and feel a pang at how her cheeks were so deliciously soft, how her eyelashes flowed over her cheeks as she lay softly sleeping, how her tiny body rose and fell as she dreamed while I held her close. I'll wish to have just a moment back. I'll wish that the moments hadn't gone so swiftly.
"Before you were born I carried you under my heart. From the moment you arrived in this world until the moment I leave it, I will always carry you in my heart." ~Mandy Harrison