Sometimes my head spins with all the things that I want to do. I feel the need to write them all down before I forget one single thing. I want to make sure that they're imprinted on my brain so that I can decide which endeavors best suit the talents that God has given me.
Occasionally I get down on myself because I feel that I'm not particularly talented in any one area. I get frustrated and antsy thinking "I'm old enough now to know what I should be good at!"
It makes me recall a conversation that my friend had with her son. In the conversation he expressed to her the same grievance. "I'm not talented in anything mom!" And of course, as any mom would she told him that he was indeed talented - but that even if you're talented at something you still have to work at it.
Isn't that just how our Father in heaven must feel about us? He makes us all unique. He knits us together in our mother's womb. He specially crafts us with careful intentions. He knows us, loves us, sees us for who we really are. He desires for us to use the loving gifts he has lavished (yes lavished) on us.
to expend or give in great amounts or without limit: to lavish gifts on a person.
He has so freely given us so much - only asking that we use what He has given us to the best of our ability, and in so doing we honor Him.
Not everyone is going to be remarkable by the world's standards. Not everyone is beautiful, talented, or intelligent if judged by the world. With that in mind - God doesn't use a cookie cutter when he makes us. He doesn't go by a formula "that works". He doesn't abide by the very few and very narrow minded secular rules. He gives us all our own personality, our own likes, dislikes, idiosyncrasies, weaknesses, strengths, capabilities. He loves us all equally, but He makes us all different.
Sometimes I think the only way to arrive at any conclusion is with persistent prayer. I truly want to serve God with my gifts - whatever they are! I desire to find out what it is that God gave me to use uniquely. I have begun to pray that the Lord will divulge what it is that He has imparted on me and how exactly He wishes me to use my gifts. It's exciting!